This has been a truly wonderful day!! Lots of cats to pet (Chester, Rosy, Lacey...), a chiropractic adjustment to end all adjustments from Sarab Nam Singh Khalsa, special chocolate to share as a gift from Sat Inder Kaur, and the most beautiful sadhana. The resonance in my voice is back, and the coughing that started up this weekend is less. I have my lung volume back as well as the melodic lilt my voice was developing from the deep peace I was dwelling in, took a hiatus from and came back to...
It is nice to have come back into the light. Sat Inder Kaur was a great help this morning as we chatted about what was appropriate behaviour from my teacher and what was not. And yet this is a gift. He should not push the way he has, it alienates people, but he has also given me a venue within which to process very old anger from the days when I was beaten and abused, verbally and physically. Spirit seems to be working through him, using the situations to heal us both.
I am grateful to be healing. This weekend almost put me off ever doing Kundalini yoga again. I was mad at God, mad at the Guru, and had slammed the door to my meditation room so hard that things fell. I am not angry anymore. I am at peace. And in the interest of maintaining that peace, I will keep my distance for a while. Gazing at the feet I guess, and doing my best to remain neutral. Reading from the Guru in Sat Tirath Ashram's Gurdwara is very, very healing.
And petting the cats is healing. So many blessings. Whatever that sadhana CD was this morning, it brought me back!
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